Never knew the best wouldnt always get the heart.

Sadly my hope was crushed.And left destitute in the middle of a mutilated dream.

The tiny colourful electronic bits on my monitor clustered into a picture.
a beautiful picture i could gaze at forever.
it wasnt mom
it wasnt dad.
it was what i have been dreaming of inside.
sadly to say sadly to know
i wished i could forget the myriad amounts of hours i spent hankering over you.
id still give up anything to hold you,
even a minute would worth the world to me.


( its been forever since i last heard your voice )
( its been forever since i last received a text )
( its been forever since ive felt your presence )
( i still wouldnt rather anyone else )
( :D )








Dad got me a new phone today.T700
didnt expect he didnt get me some cool phone much much much better than expected.well thanks a bunch dad. :)
though i know hes still dissapointed in me and depressed,im not doing anything and i feel im a totally asshole.
like i think i understand how he feels,
like when you try your best to please someone when all get back is................
sorry mom
sorry dad